Owned by Guilt
We all know what guilt is but not to the degree that it owns us in its very insidious, rampant and so deeply intricate way, a way that with the best intention we can’t even begin to figure out.
If we do feel the top layers of guilt, what we easily recognize as such, we nevertheless are unable to feel its profound roots, deeply buried in our unconscious. We simply can’t conceive how guilt is underneath so many of our behaviors, because it doesn’t feel like guilt anymore since it is so ancient. We lost its taste, it became unrecognizable.
The Origins of Guilt
Let’s go back in time to understand the origin of guilt. When we lose a big chunk of our consciousness, what we lose the most is our “Will” the part of the Essence that is the “feeling” quality, versus the “Spirit”, the part of us that is the “thinking” quality. The Will being the feeling part serves as a powerful monitoring system, since it reflects what is going on in the thinking part, and also lets us know where we are in regards to our Source. Feel good, close, feel bad, far. The Will having been lost for so long, you can only imagine why we don’t feel ancient guilt anymore, along with all kinds of ancient feelings by the way.
Upon exiting Source, when we fragment and thus lose ourselves, we don’t feel good at all; we think we made a mistake by going out and incarnating. This thought generates guilt that lives in us instead of us, and will do so as long as we don’t own our self by retrieving the will we lost in the first place. This very basic and ancient story is reflected in our reality with the concept of sin, making us guilty to begin with, having chosen to go away from Source/Eden, and in constant need for redemption thereafter.
Who says guilt says punishment, because according to the logic of guilt, it’s our fault if we have lost ourselves, and we therefore have to redeem ourselves, be forgiven for “the sin” we committed so that we can be rehabilitated into Source.
We don’t understand that this logic is totally perverted because by punishing ourselves for having lost that self, we simply continue to spin in the same problem. We don’t solve anything, since we will never regroup ourselves by condemning ourselves. We are still lost and rely on divinity to forgive us and redeem us, so that we can be whole again. It’s like asking someone to help you relieve your pain when you are in the action of stabbing yourself. Remove the knife first and then you’ll be out of pain, and instead of the hole created by the knife, you’ll regain you!
By punishing or condemning ourselves, all we do is to push against ourselves and consequently make it impossible to reunite with it. We are still lost, relying, unconsciously or not, on forgiveness from divinity to make us whole again. Not the right equation, because wholeness can’t come from outside of us, otherwise all this would only be a big farcical show of which we would just be the puppets.
Missing the Point with Guilt and Redemption
We miss the point with guilt and redemption. We are the extensions and ambassadors of the Universe and are on Earth to find out about that. We are part of the adventure of uncovering and realizing our eternal nature. The only way to figure out who we are was to lose it so that “WE” can go after it and regain it in consciousness.
That’s why we have to stop playing the game of guilt and redemption because all we do by this is shooting ourselves in the foot and go nowhere. What we have to do instead is to roll the sleeves, go to work and actively retrieve this self we so long for, to the point where we sacrifice the little we still have on the altar of guilt and redemption, giving our power away to an illusion that will never bring us back.
Only once we are back and whole, can we resonate with the Source that we come from and realize our divinity. We will never be able to feel whole through the unconscious sabotage of ourselves with guilt lying in us instead of us.